2. 3 Fears

On day two, the topic is 3 legitimate fears I have and how they became fears. Let's get started. . .

1. Death. I've said it before and I'll say it again. . .I am terrified of death. Now that I feel uncertain as to what happens when we die and the thought of waiting in the grave gives me anxiety, I feel very uncomfortable with dieing. Not a day goes by that I don't think about death: how will I die? when will I die? what will happen once I'm dead? Oh, the horror! I just need someone to sit down with me and really explain in great detail this whole part of life according to Islam. . .and in a way that won't terrify me, but, rather, bring me peace!

2. Panic attacks. Oh, how I stay awake in fear many nights praying and hoping my face doesn't start to go numb and adrenaline doesn't rush through my body. Pills, pills, pills. . .I hate taking pills, but some days I have no other choice. Sometimes it would be nice to have a brain transplant. LoL Or maybe just being at peace with death will help calm my panic attacks as well. . .I know it's sometimes triggered by thinking I'm going to die.

3. Not pleasing God. Most of my fears tie together somehow. Not pleasing God would surely mean not being in peace once this life is over. I hate to disappoint anyone and the thought of disappointing the one who made my life possible makes me feel terrible. I pray to God I will be forgiven before my time of certainty comes and I will never have to hear, see or feel the fires of hell. I pray this for everyone!
Ameen.