For day one, I will be listing 20 random facts about myself (some you may already know, most you probably do not know at all). Let the fun begin. . .
1. As a child, the very first thing I wanted to be when I grew up was a comedian and a magician. I loved making people laugh and loved the fascination that came with magic tricks (although I was terrible at them).
2. Verbally, I have a very hard time defending myself. If someone wants to attack me or cut me down with words, my mind goes blank and I'm horrible at comebacks!
3. I have a difficult time drinking really cold beverages. Feeling the cold go down my throat and chest makes me nervous. . .weird, I know.
4. I used to have frightening dreams with the devil in them, but since converting to Islam I can't remember having even one, alhamdullilah. That's not to say I don't have frightening dreams, but none with the devil so apparent in them.
5. This will end up sounding very childish, but I get so sad when my parents and sister do things together without me. I feel so left out and absolutely hate it. I'm such a family person and it's probably borderline unhealthy.
6. There's at least one moment in every day that I worry about death. Not sure how to overcome it just yet.
7. I sometimes secretly dream of living an Amish lifestyle. I just love the simplicity of it!
8. As much as I enjoy talking about myself (hey, who doesn't?), I'm having a very difficult time thinking of 20 things to write here!!!! LoL
9. Although my husband and I have had our hardships in the first 2 years of our marriage, we are better than ever. Alhamdullilah! I can't imagine my life without him.
10. Ismail and I just got back from a very short trip to New Orleans and now it is one of my favorite cities in America! Just amazing!
11. Ismail and I have 2 cats now. . .Olivia and Brizbo. I really wanted to name the boy (Brizbo) Oliver, but I guess it was only fair to let my husband choose one of the names, right? Eh . . .
12. I love to garden!!! Since moving into this home with yard space I've planted cucumbers, lettuce, blueberries, mint, all other kinds of herbs and flowers. I just LOVE it!!
13. My husband and I just made our very first large purchase together. . .a 2012 Honda Accord! It's really Ismail's car, but my name is on it for now as well. Plus, I absolutely adore my car. . .the cutest little Smart car ever!
14. As much as I love Islam, I have yet to find the path that brings me peace in this religion. I had more inner peace as a Chrisitan than a Muslim, sadly. Why? I've let some Muslims beliefs take hold of my mind. . .the one's that scare you from Hell rather than lovingly bring you towards Heaven. Does that even make sense?
15. I love popping pimples and blackheads. Have I mentioned this before? Probably. It's just so much fun!!!
16. I could go to Disney World every day and never tire from it. It truly is one of the most magical places on earth!
17. I don't watch much TV, but when I do it's usually The Secret Life of the American Teenager, 16 & Pregnant, and Teen Mom. Baby fever, anyone? Ahhhh!!
18. I hope that when I die, I will be greeted in heaven with all my family, friends and pet's I've had throughout this life that have passed away before me. I know many would disagree with me on this, but it does bring a sense of peace when I imagine death this way.
19. In relation to numero 18, the concept of what happens after we die, according to Islam, kind of scares me. The thought of waiting in the grave until the Day of Judgement gives me anxiety and maybe it's because I really don't understand the concept of it. I would LOVE to find a clear and interesting book that can explain this to me in a way I feel comfortable with.
20. Wow, I made it to 20? How exciting. Okay, so although not much of what I posted is very interesting, I hope you will continue to read and browse around the next 29 days for the remaining daily posts! Oh, and PLEASE JOIN IN!!!
~XoXo~
Point 14 makes me feel sad. Are you doing anything at all about it? Of course, inner peace does not come overnight. Even as a born Muslim, I had to learn the hard way too. I'm lucky in Singapore we have many lessons that are free run by the Muslim Religious Council and the mosques that we can attend daily.
ReplyDeleteThere are a few great websites that you can read - just have extra caution of those deviant or extremist factions that are taking advantage of the internet to spread their beliefs.
Dana from Pure has just started her website on Islamic teachings. You might like to visit her website http://pureguidance.blogspot.com/
I pray that you will get the inner peace that you feel lacking in our religion. May you be guided by Allah.
I can agree with nearly all of these as relating to me except the stuff about your hubby obviously! And the pimple stuff, girl that's just nasty.
ReplyDeleteI would join you but I wrote a whole lot of random facts about me a week ago and I'm sure no one wants to hear that again in a hurry lol.
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Inspiring Always,
ReplyDeleteI've been doing many things about it and I have very short moments of that peace I'm looking for and than, somehow, it slips away between my fingers. I appreciate your prayers very much. May Allah bless you <3
Bonnie,
LoL I know it's nasty, but so awesome too!!! Well, you don't have take part in day one, but join in on the rest! It would be lots of fun!!!
I understand you well when you talk about not finding your peace in your religion. I am at the same stage I think, questions are good, one day or another you will find your peace, the right way for you.
ReplyDeleteI have a very hard time defending myself too, I can't most of the time and so let it go. Take care and looking forward reading more!
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Marie,
ReplyDeleteIt's always a pleasure receiving a comment from you. God willing, we will both find that sense of peace we are looking for.
Take care, love.
It's nice to get to know you better! About waiting in the grave, as far as I understand it, it's a timeless state. The final day is not right after you die because people you left and future generations will live on, but to you it will feel like you died and arrived straight to the final day. No waiting.
ReplyDeleteCandice,
ReplyDeleteI really like your explanation. By any chance do you have any references or books that explain it in more detail. The way you describe it doesn't make me fearful at all. Thank you so much!