Assalaam Alaykum,
As I sit here thinking about my life, for a moment I feel saddened about being the "black sheep" of my family. It's hard being the only one to have the beliefs I have and it's exhausting always having to explain myself and trying to make my family understand why I choose to live the way I do. Sometimes I just want to scream in their faces, but I know that would never help our relationship. Instead, I often disregard even the things that truly do matter to me and the things that Allah (swt) has obligated upon us. Shamefully, I admit this. I wish I could say that is not the case, but it is. Also, I wonder how some converts/reverts are so strong and dutiful to Allah and the way they are supposed to be living their lives. Masha'Allah! May Allah bless you all who struggle yet still abide by our obligations. Ameen.
So where am I going with this? Not sure how this popped in my head (most things end up there randomly), but let me point out the following:
Noah- Black Sheep of his community
Abraham- Black Sheep of his family
Moses- Black Sheep of an entire nation
Jesus- Black Sheep of his people
Mohammed- Black sheep to all of the above
(Peace & Blessings be upon them all)
That really puts things in perspective. Thank you Allah for such an eye opener.
You make a good point! There are many verses in the Holy Qur'an dealing with this... like people calling the prophets (peace be upon them) madmen or people who were possessed simply because they brought a message didn't align with their beliefs.
ReplyDeleteGreat eye-opener I agree, thanks Elisa. I understand you as I have a though time with my family too. Always finding myself in a place I have to justify my choices.
ReplyDeleteBut keep good relationship with your parents, as it is very important. Pray and ask God to give you the strength to overcome the issues on the way. Do your life, the things that mean a lot to you.
Slowly your family will get used to it. They will see behind the first appearance. And if they don't, do your best, be close to God and keep faith. Everything is possible.
Keeping you in my prayers. Take care
Salaam alaikum
ReplyDeleteIt's definitely hard. I know how you feel :-/ But at the end of the day, you're still you. Maybe your religious beliefs have changed, but you're still the same person your family knows and loves... It takes time, but they'll come around Inshallah. Keep your head up :)