As salamu alaykum lovies <3
I know it has been a while since you've heard from me. Thank you for all your comments in previous posts. I've been away due to health reasons. Mental health reasons. It's hard to understand for those who have not been through the same thing, but I'm a long time sufferer of panic disorder. It started when I was 16, in high school. For a couple years now I've done great, alhamdullilah, but a few weeks ago I had the worst panic attack of my life. It was so bad my husband called 911 and later that night we ended up in the ER. There's not much doctors can do for someone with a panic attack besides give them medication so I have to find a way to overcome this AGAIN pretty much on my own. My daddio came down to visit for a few days recently (he has dealt with the same thing when he was around my age) which helped a lot, but didn't put an end to the problem. In fact, I went to the ER for the second time and I am now back home at my parents house 8 hours away from my husband to recoup. On top of that, my school work has suffered tremendously and it looks like the one class I was taking this semester will be a fail. I can only blame myself though. When I do have the time and strength to get things done, I just simply don't want to. I'm tired. Tired of doing things for others all the time which is pretty much how this whole panic thing started again in the first place. God, forgive me.
Anyway, I'm still here and reading blogs. I'm still interested in doing the pen pal thing, but it might just be a bit longer than I planned. I need to find focus and organization before I fall too far to get back up. You know what I mean? I'm a mess.
Love you all <3
Asalaamu Alaikum sister! Subhanallah I am so sorry for what you are going through...inshallah I hope you are able to get a better handle on the panic disorder thing, i know it must be such a hard thing to deal with. You said your father dealt with the same disorder when he was your age, so inshallah with time it will go away. Ameen!
ReplyDelete"perhaps you dislike a thing and Allah makes therein much good." An Nisa-19.
ReplyDeleteI know you've heard this from other people before.. but I thought I'd remind you that even if you're going through something you may think is really bad, there has to be something good behind it. You may not see it, but that does not mean it's not there :)
I will remember you in my prayers inshallah, and may Allah grant you the strength you need to overcome this ordeal :)
Much love
AlabasterMuslim,
ReplyDeleteWa alaykum as salam, sister! I am starting to do much better, alhamdullilah! I am taking medication. . .not what I wanted to do, but it's helping so I'll stick with it :) Ameen, sister. Thank you for your concern. Insha'Allah, this will be done with soon!
Mariam,
As salamu alaykum, sister!!
Thank you for posting that verse. It's a sweet reminder and one I have thought of too. Although it's difficult to deal with, I am grateful for it because I know with this I have become more aware of my prayers and every day worship. I hate to admit it, but for a while there I wasn't even praying. This has helped me put my life in perspective, alhamdullilah. Thank you so much for your prayers.
Love you both sweet sisters <3
MashAllah, I'm glad to learned from your comment that you're doing better. Hopefully, in your case as in your dad's, it goes away; in the meantime, take your meds if they work (I hate taking any type of medications myself but sometimes is best to take them to avoid the greater evil) and hold on tight to your salah and duas they're your sword and shield when faced with any difficulty.
ReplyDeleteMay Allah heal you and may you be reunited with your husband soon.
Thank you N. Perez :-)
ReplyDeleteYour comment is very uplifting and I appreciate your words. Insha'Allah, I will overcome this with more faith in my heart!
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It was good to get an update from you! I hope you are doing so much better now! I think a mental health issue would be so much more frustrating than a physical one because they still seem to be rather misunderstood. Mash'Allah you are a strong woman, and insha'Allah this will only make you stronger!
ReplyDeleteP.S. about the pen pal thing...message me on facebook before you write to me! We're moving at the end of this month so I'll need to get you a new address.