I just want to remind everyone out there that Allah truly listens to our prayers. I have complete proof of this. After I first converted to this beautiful religion, alhamdullilah, I prayed and prayed and prayed for this one particular thing to happen. At the same time I never felt more sure and confident that Allah would answer my prayers just the way I wanted. I didn't have to wait long either!
Soon enough my prayers were answered. . .wow, that day I was ecstatic! My heart filled with so much love for Allah. I felt like I just couldn't contain it all!! Now, I won't go into details of what this was exactly as it was an incredibly personal thing, but this is also a reminder to do what's right with what Allah has blessed you with. Unfortuanetly, I learned the hard way. I went back to doing exactly what I was NOT supposed to do. Astaghfirullah! I lost what I had so desperately prayed for. My heart broke in pieces and to this day I still feel some of that pain. More so, pain for what terrible things I did. Pain for letting Allah trust in me and I failed Him.
Lord forgive me and take away this pain. But, if it's better for me to feel this pain always, than I accept my fate. I accept only that which can benefit my relationship with Allah.
Please Please Please sisters, NEVER fall back on a promise to Allah!!
I need to remind myself this. I've been a dissapointment to myself (and no doubt, I know He is dissapointed with me as well) and it kills me to know that I dont change what I want and what I can and especially who I can be. Laziness and carelessness is driving me away from Him. :'(
ReplyDeleteAllah is always merciful, He almighty might answer our prayers in this world, or For the better Knowledge of Him he'd keep it for us to the hereafter, or give us something else better than what we asked for.
ReplyDeleteeven if things go wrong,it is mercy, so we go back to Him, subhana Allah..
thanks for sharing sister.:)
Thank you dear sisters for your comments. My prayers with you both :-)
ReplyDeleteMahira, I think we all get into those moments of laziness and carelessness. We are human and will always need that extra push to do what we need to do for a better life. I seem to battle laziness to the extreme. Working a full time job and all I want to do when I get home is sleep or sit on the computer doing NOTHING. I struggle to get up and cook and get the house cleaned up. I do it all, but it's HARD.
Moon, thank you so much for your words of comfort. I will forever be so grateful to your kindness. May Allah bless you both with a beautiful life in this world and the hereafter (ameen).